I was able to drop in pretty quickly this morning – maybe because I was still waking up after a night out. I had pretty active dreams, so I’m not sure if that’s related either
Regardless, I was able to drop in fairly quickly and while the piti (energy) didn’t come on full and strong like it typically does, I fell into a weird trippy visual trance instead.
In the insight portion of practice image after image after image flashed in front of my eyes – various colors of mist, geometric formations, buddhas, a GIANT EYE opening that raised and intensified energy. I saw waterfalls, standing stones, some sort of dwelling made out of natural materials. For much of this I felt infused with nature, like I had a tree growing through my body (not in an intense no-self sense – just in a visual sense)
I recognize all these things as nimitta – but my nimitta seems to be changing. For a long time I didn’t see anything while meditating. On retreat I saw some trippy stuff, then went a long period not seeing anything, and then a month go back to dancing lights. In the past couple weeks the lights have changed formation – instead of gauzy concentric circles they are waterfalls, geometric patterns etc with the occasional identifiable object (like a buddha) thrown in. Today though was just off the hook
My whole noting practice today was “See/Pleasant/Not-Wanting”
Despite being fascinated with each individual image, I wasn’t particularly attached to them and just let them flicker through. The flickered through so quickly, one after another. Some were interesting enough to pull me in for a moment, but most just wooshed by. I felt like I was watching a film reel of random images.
I’m curious if this is another insight into impermanence, this time of see-space.
the Good Heretic 